Well as you all may have known before from my earlier blogpost way back when, I am doing the Isotetrin(Accutane) Procedure. Yaayy. Haha, and how I told you I'd have to get my blood taken every month? Well yeah, that happened. Yesterday. And for someone irrevocably scared of needles and blood and people in scrubs, I'd say it went pretty.... Hm. Pretty..... Uhh, well I lived, which is better than what I expected, so we'll just leave it at that.
When I first woke up yesterday morning, I was nauseous as nauseous can be. I was sooo nervous and you could tell. If I lived in California, I would have easily qualified for medical marijuana. My doctors appointment was scheduled at 8:30 and all during seminary, my hands were shaking. My handwriting was pretty horrible. Finally it was time to say goodbye to my friends at church for the last time and tell them what I entitled them to in my will, and was off to the morg- I mean, doctors.
I called Noah to wake him up because originally I wanted to talk on the phone to him while my blood was being taken but I decided I would have to just be strong! He just texted me really motivating and encouraging things like he does whenever I'm nervous about anything. He really is the best, and is definitely the one and only person in the world who can make me calm. He is just the best :D.
We sat in the waiting room for a while, and while we were sitting in there, I was so anxious, and antsy, I could have just at any second began to burst into tears. And eventually that's what I did. After every time I heard the doorknob on the door to the back offices click, indicated a nurse was going to call a name, my eyes would water, I was so pathetic. And finally my name was called and my fear spilled out my eyes.
My dad explain to the doctor how nervous I was (as if she couldn't already tell) so she let me lay on a table just incase I'd pass out, which was highly expected and prepared for. She took my blood and I closed my eyes and talked to the nurse as she tried to keep me distracted with thoughts of graduation and asked me about my classes and grades.
For those of you who told me you don't feel a thing, or it only pinches for a second, your advice is invalid from here on to eternity. I could feel the needle violating my bloodstream the wwwhhhooolleee time it was in! I could have sworn the needle expanded in size after she stabbed me in the skin with it. I felt it, I cried, it was pretty much the climax of my entire life.
Finally she was done robbing me of my sanity and sat me up slowly. She then gave me some orange juice and rubbed my back as I drank it. She was such a nice blood sucker! And my orange juice was really good, too! :D she helped me down from the table and said I could leave when I was stable enough. So I left immediately not caring how good of shape I was in, I just knew I'd get better once I was driving away with what blood I had left.
I was so brave! I was so proud of myself! I sent a picture of my band aid to him and he replied with how proud he was of me for facing my fears! And for living! He was pretty happy for that, too.
I would like to end this blog post by saying that every time I have to get my blood taken, I won't be scared anymore and that I know I'll be okay.
But nah. This whole thing will most likely happen every tine I have to get my blood taken, ha!
#AccutaneAdventures, over and out!