Ya know?
Those just, grrrddhkhfsk nights?
The ones where ya just have a total meltdown?
Okay maybe you don't.
But tonight, has been just one of those nights.
I take the SAT on Saturday, and I'm pretty positive you can trace almost every problem in my life tonight back to that. There is no one who is more stressed over standardized tests than I am. It's that time of every procrastinating Senior's life where you realize college applications are due in four weeks and your SAT scores are about 60 points too low. Here's a little recap from the past...
My junior year, this January, I took the SAT with no preparation at all. I had to be reminded the night before that I was even taking the test. The next day, my test administrator took away my calculator, not knowing a single THING she was doing. That time, I made a- lol. Like I'd ever share my scores. Ya know what? I do this a lot in my blog, I just, comPLETELY stop talking about a subject and I'll just go ahead and move on to what I'm really trying to get across to all you lovely people.
To be honest, it's been a few hard weeks. Lots have nights have been hdffjhdkdd nights. Tonight, I had to invite one of my closest friends (and geographiclly closest) over late into the night begging for some company. We talked about what I've been struggling with that day, just like we do every day at school. She gave me advice and it was a great opportunity for our friendship to grow stronger. She stayed over for hours and the night turned around. I am very thankful for her willingness to rush to a scene when she is called.
The whole night, for some reason, I had been thinking about the rest of the youth in the ward, and just thought about the fact that I was once their age, and when I was their age, I wish someone would have thought "I never want Cindy to feel like this" or "I hope Cindy never has to go through with what I'm going through" or just a simple "I hope Cindy is okay, and is happy." So what I did, was I looked for some inspiration that I could give to the other seminary students as a devotional in Seminary the next morning. I couldn't find exactly what I wanted to say to them, so I made my own quote. If I could tell the youth of the ward one thing, based on how I have been feeling, then I would say.....
"It is no mishap, no mistake, no mayhem
that you are here for a reason.
Where you are in life.
What state or stage of life you are in.
You were sent here at this time because you can do hard things.
You are strong and can overcome today’s trails.
Don’t give up, you’ve got this.
It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it. You’re a Child of God."
-Cindy Davis
I printed this out on little cards for each of the students in Seminary and plan on giving one to each of them in the morning. I'm taking the blessing of being Seminary Class VP and making it an opportunity to inspire. I just want to share that with everyone I know. Whether you are feeling down or not, you need to hear it. I hope everyone can come to know that for themselves. There really is a purpose to life, and why we are here, and what we are here to do. Don't give up, you've got this.
